#Trust30 is an online initiative and 30-day writing challenge that encourages you to look within and trust yourself. Use this as an opportunity to reflect on your now, and to create direction for your future. 30 prompts from inspiring thought-leaders will guide you on your writing journey.
(Prompt by: Chris Guillebeau)
If we live truly, we shall see truly. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Not everyone wants to travel the world, but most people can identify at least one place in the world they’d like to visit before they die. Where is that place for you, and what will you do to make sure you get there?
I always said that one day I would go to and live in Italy. I felt it for most of my life that this is where I was meant to be. Its something I always believed. People would tell me sure it would be great to visit. Maybe one day. I’m not even sure why. I just always knew that one day I would live there.
And then I met Nico and funny how life is, he lived in Italy. Then we fell in love. Then I flew to Italy. I made two dreams come true the day I purchased that ticket. Being there was like being home. Coming back to the US was like being in a foreign country. How is that a place I had never been to, had an idealized view of could make me feel more true to myself than any other place I had been.
When we had Isabella and decided that we should go back it was easy planning the trip. And secretly exciting. Here I was about to make another dream come true. But then I fought against my inner voice and questioned everything. Living in Italy the first 6-7 months was truly a nightmare but only because I made it that way.
But coming back to America. It didnt feel right. I love being with my family and seeing them again. I missed them all so much. But the days and weeks before we left were so emotionally charged that I just have to admit that my soul, my heart was saying no dont go, you belong here. And I do.
I’ve crossed that one off my list of places to go before I die. It truly was the only one. Sure there are other places I’d love to but none had the same intensity. I would love to see more of Italy. And the visit some of my European neighbors. Specifically we would both love to go to Ireland one day. But I wouldnt feel regret if I never got there either. And that the most important thing.
